Postcard from Palm Springs

I used to think lovely weekends away would come to me when I had a significant other in my life. As independent of a woman as I am, for some reason I associated that joyful ritual (hotel stays, destination overnights) as being something that would happen with a partner. Perhaps on some level as a woman, I had instilled that one day having a partner would help *make* that dream come true- he would logistically make that experience come true. How old fashioned. How did I let that narrative seep into my mind state?

I’m embarrassed admitting it. But I was sort of waiting for someone to lead me on vacation, encourage me to take the time off, romance me.

None of the men who have come or gone in the past couple years were going to make that dream happen. So I did it for myself. Started dreaming up destinations, adventures, and making them come true. And let me tell you, it’s been *very* enjoyable traveling on my own! Meeting up with beautiful friends, exploring new spaces, expanding.

In reality, a night or two away to a lovely location is totally manageable on my own. Even a cleverly planned jaunt abroad, has worked beautifully. It took a bit of time to get my earning up to a comfortable place to be able to afford vacations, but I’ve made it. And it’s been extraordinary.

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Song of the Day: Bad Guy

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Political Sneak Attack

It’s rare in this modern era of dating to be set up on an actual blind date. Typically there’s some exchange of photos, either through dating apps or social media. But in this particular experience I was set up on an actual blind date. Didn’t know his last name, couldn’t Google him, going in on blind faith. It happened at a birthday party for my cousin’s kids. This mutual friend of my cousins’, discovering I was single, launched into matchmaker mode. She wanted to sell me on “Peter”. And sell me she did. Before I knew it, I was texting with a stranger and arranging a dinner. From the pitch, he seemed really appealing. Handsome, never married, worked for the City of LA as an engineer, family-oriented, “nicest” guy, etc.

A blind setup, sort of a vintage throwback in the dating universe, can inspire so many retro “what ifs”. Beautiful fantasies about what could come together thanks to a casual setup arranged at a child’s birthday party. How quaint! I can fast forward and tell you that for awhile, it was pretty quaint. Leading up to our first date, Peter texted me a selection of restaurant options tailored to my neighborhood in LA. He drove over an hour each way from Orange County in order to take me out and continue to court me over a series of phone calls, texts and dates.

Every few days, like clockwork, he would call me to ask about my day, “check in”, and talk about our respective work and family updates. It was cute. And so was he. He was probably 6′ 3″, blond, with ocean blue green eyes. Really striking, and as mentioned, all around very polite and proper… perhaps that should have been the red flag…

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The Divorced Dad Experiment

For the past year, I attempted a dating experiment. Having developed feelings for an emotionally unavailable man in his forties in mid-2016, I decided to channel my heartbreak and be proactive. Harnessing the power of my dating apps, I changed the settings of potential mates, shifting the age from early 40’s- early 50’s, removing guys in their 30’s (I’m in my early 30’s) and limiting my pool of options to a decidedly more seasoned type. Thanks to Bumble, this experiment is really easy to put in to motion.

As should perhaps be expected, many of the men I connected with were divorced with children. This I anticipated and was happy to explore. I’ve always liked the idea of being a step mom, or helping to raise children in a unique way, and am not necessarily jonesing to birth my own kids, at least not anytime soon. So onto the dating journey I voyaged…

The gentlemen I met were, by and large, gentlemen. Kind, successful, gainfully employed and devoted to their children. The guys I went out with had children ranging in age from elementary school to early college. What one might not realize before embarking on an experiment like this, is that a 47-year-old guy can have a 20-year-old daughter, and in fact a few of them did, so that was a twist.

None of the relationships progressed to the place my initial aspirational relationship led me to dream they might, however I was fond of the men I met and learned something from each of them. The results were striking…

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Song of the Day: Kicks

Lauren-Aquilina-Kicks-2016-2480x2480Lyrical magic. Wait for the song to build…it’s so on point. Thank you Lauren Aquilina.

“I’m done being down about this…” Correct!

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Celebrating Independence Day

I love Independence Day. For single people I think it carries an added significance- celebrating the absolute freedom of being unattached.

Our society is built on the institution of marriage and “settling down”. I spend a lot of time thinking about what that would look and feel like. But I spend far more time enjoying the life I have free from all of that. My friends, my family, my apartment, creative endeavors, work friends, rescue dog, community in LA– all the things that make my life unique and solely my own– as a single person. One day there may come a time when much of that is shared with someone and everything will be different. For now, it’s mine.

I know from married and engaged friends that once it happens it changes everything immediately and fully. Their friends are your friends. Their house is your house. It’s not easy to march to the beat of your own drum when you have someone to “check in” with constantly, let alone a marriage to tend to or children to care for. You can’t pop out to meet friends whenever you feel like it, stay out too late or shrug off responsibility. My married and engaged friends tell me they look back to the time right before they became attached and wish they could go back for one last hurrah, one last experience of being single and free– to do it all over again. Many of my single friends say they wish they had something consistent and nurturing. The grass is always greener on the other side.

Today I’d like to celebrate the experience of being independent and inspired.

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